"Lasts"

I have a shocking habit of not watching/reading the "lasts" of things. I just cant make myself do it!! I know its really sad and rather pathetic but there are just somethings that you get so attached or a part of (see im sad) that i hate to end it, actually its mainly with sad things because i like living in my happy chappy world and dont like watching sad things but oh well (have no idea what im talking about? read on:D)... Ill give you some examples:

It took me 2 years to watch the last matrix!! My rellies have all three and i watched the first two a number of times ( i love the matrix! just thinking about the parallels in it makes my head ache...in a good way:D) but i just couldnt bring myself to watch the last one...i knew he was going to die and i just didnt want to see it end (and i didnt want them to wreck it by making some stupid mistake). Neway after a LOT of ribbing by everybody i finally watched it and enjoyed it but now i have to watch them all again one after each to get the whole jist of it.

Another example is i read these series of books in grade 8 or 9...they were really good and there was like 11 books in all anyway i read 9 of them but then i couldnt bring myself to read the last 2 at the time...i completley forgot about the series till this year where i read all the books and very much enjoyed them altho its a bit sad now that its over.

See im ridiculous really:P

Another one: (sorry to talk about dr who again but...) the series 2 of dr who my mum taped the last two episodes for me cuz i was at work. i knew cuz my mum and sister kept going on about it that it was sad etc...so i couldnt bring myself to watch them and my mum eventually taped over them.. ug im annoyed about it now tho and my mum and my sister keep teasing me about it.

So it brings me to now...dr who again....:P...and im have the last 3 episodes left to watch (i have them on dvd so its ok my mums not going to tape over it:D) but i KNOW its really sad...my friend has watched the episodes like 3 times now and cries everytime, my other friend said when she watched it she didnt cry but she felt sad for days after my mum said it was devasting and traumatic (getting the picture that one: its sad, and two: my friends and family are WAY too obessed with dr who). neway so now everyone keeps telling me to watch it and i really want to and i will but im just cant bring myself to watch them yet...call it denial if you will:D...haha see i told you im sad:P

neway im sure this all means something terrible about me:p but whatever...i just find it rather amusing.