writing

i really felt like writing a blog however im a bit lost for a topic. well actually im not i have lots of ideas and things that i want to write about but i dont know how to start...



i really am finding it hard living at home... you know, i go from living 'by myself' in a place where im indepent, make my own decisions, have a family church, am encouraged, am held accountable, taught and encouraged to know God more....I move back home and i find it HARD!! i get critisied for everything, nobody talks much about God or puts any importance in it. hmmm i get told what to do all the time and i have to live with people that i dont always get along with or see eye to eye. and the thing is im comfortable enough with them to yell and be mean back...its a challenge...i dont want to use launceston as my crutch! its easy in launceston but i dont want to be one of those ppl who around ppl are 'good' christians, happy chappy, involved, on fire, but their families see the real them! this is not someone that i want to be! i dont think i am cuz i do try and im alot better than when i used to live at home and not care but its a working progress. the other night i was really upset when i went to bed but ended up writing and praying about it all and i now feel a bit more encouraged about the whole thing but i find it hard....argh this blog isnt really going anywhere but hey! please pray for me...i really want to change and keep changing. to be thankful here where i am and not keep longing for launceston. i want to make a difference in my family not just cause more struggles.

neway. i have been liking some things down...hanging out with new and old friends...buoootiful scenery!

Neway tlk later!



**special mention to Alan....who said i had to write about him :P

...to mid week soccer games cuz they are awesome!! ive met so many ppl through soccer and gotten to know many others.

to Rowii cuz she makes me laugh, to technical drawings cuz they make me laugh, to random nights on campus where weird things happen



xx