motivation

Hello There:)

Im filling in 45mins till my assignment results come out...i know, i know i could actually walk back to my room and come and use the net later...but its more fun this way:) Therefore with all this free time i thought id fill in my devout (haha) readers a bit about what ive been up to these last past days just in case ur wondering.

So here goes...

Last couple of weeks, BIG struggle to be motivated to study! It seems like knowing i have assignments, tests and only 2 weeks left till prac doesnt really do the trick. i have been doing NO study...no i dont mean just not as much as usual i actually mean NO, none, zilch, nadda/noodle ( everyone as so gotta watch jonah veggie tales once in there life). its not like im always busy doing other things, yes sometimes i am busy with other commitments, but theres a whole bunch of time i just waste by sitting and listening to music on my laptop, ug. Neway i hoping thats these next two weeks are very different...for two reasons one:myself and two friends have commited to pray for motivation for each other and secondly i recently got back marks for an assesment that i failed by 3 points...im so disappointed in myself, this is the first thing ive failed at uni and if my marks dont significantly increase ill end up repeating this subject next year! so hoping that this gives me the neccesary motivation.

the thing is i just find it difficult studying sometimes cuz its not really my thing...i mean i love learning and i also want to be learning something (like languages, im so getting a couple of those under my belt in the next couple of years) but sometimes i feel like im putting everything on hold till unis finished. which i know isnt true but often it feels like it. i help out at church quite often with whatevers needed doing and i love it...often what im doing isnt overly brillant or important but usually they are time consuming jobs that need doing and i love doing it and helping out...i guess its a bit about wanting to feel useful etc but sometimes i struggle with the fact that i feel like im not doing what i love to do during my study, which i think is why i love kids club so much...its something that im actually really good at, i love doing it and its what i am supposed to do (if that makes sense). i hate the saying the end justifies the means (because its used in alot of bad contexts) but its something that i have to remember especially this close to the end of my degree. that said i cant wait till prac in 2 weeks when i get to work on the kids ward at the royal...should be awesome.

Back to motivation, i have had no motivation for study and for just things like keeping my room clean but with other things lots of motivation...for example swimming reguarly, salsa and eating healthier and ive also had recently a lot of motivation with my walk with God...ive been studying 2 corinthians recently and as its been awhile, im finding it really awesome!! last couple of months ive been getting more and more hungry and really wanting to understand and know God more and this is definitley coming out in my wanting to really 'devour' the word. neway like i said 2 corinthians especially end chapter 3, 4, 5, 6 is really interesting and really awesome...im going to put up some of my notes on what i found interesting or thought provoking later...neway i encourage you all to read 2 cor again but not just that but to really get into the word...someone once said: 'you hunger for what you feed on' and its true. my youth group is also doing a bible study called cleansing streams atm and that is also really interesting...learning about walking in the spirit, commiting everything to God etc.

neway still have 20 mins to fill in so im going to play on facebook and get my notes together for tomorrows classes whilst i fill in the time. i could blurgh out some more thoughts but this blog is long enough already :)

ooo just in case anyone watches dr who (most ppl dont i found out...bit of a nerdy type show...but i love it) oh my gosh im watching it on dvd so im not up to where everyone else is yet but its rather full on :) haha i love catherine tate shes so real but i dont think the stories lines really match up to the standards of the last series' altho i might think this just cuz ive watched them in a short period of time. i really want to watch the old ones again tho...they were brillant with there black and white not scary AT ALL special effects :P

Nehoo blog again later :)